@ Juni26
I understood Your feelings even before from the text.
I do not know, if You enventually want to practise and exercise german-language by Yourself or not.
Let me again offer help and support for the translation and/or orthography of Your texts. Send them to me before publishing, or give me a hint after when published already.
Ok, and now: write and write....
(by the way: the one or other poem in english may also be possible in LL)